February 2012
11 posts
“I am going on a newfound music rage. Thanks youtube, I have missed so much.”
“Three may keep a secret, if two of them are dead.”
– Benjamin Franklin
1 tag
YELLOW
Last night, I saw the painted yellows come to life.
They danced in synchrony and they danced only with light.
As I passed them with each pedal, they turned into dark.
I wanted to look back but the colors ahead of me
Oh, they were much prettier in sight.
There was gold and there was white.
Pure but too bright.
I knew if I kept looking, I would only turn blind.
So I turned my head back, with...
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When you feel so low
And you have nobody to call.
January 2012
15 posts
“The primary cause of unhappiness is never the situation but thought about it. Be...”
– Eckhart Tolle
“I like beings who don’t know how to be human.”
11:41
Either I’m lacking a moment of inspiration or my writing skills has already reached its pitiful peak. Whichever it may be, I hope it’s only temporary. Although, this decline has been going on for months, a bit snail but steady, I really hope there’s more to life than this.
Excitement only occurs when it’s the hardest time to smile. It sucks when you have more reasons to...
New Year's Resolution, Seven Months Later
On New Year’s Day, I started using nicotine patches, nicotine gum, and nicotine lozenges but stopped when I began to hallucinate that I was a Lucky Strike. January 2nd brought a new, less arrogant resolution: “I will smoke only cigarettes I did not pay for.” Unfortunately, I hadn’t anticipated how easy it would be to steal them at the 7-Eleven, especially when the girl behind the counter was on...
December 2011
24 posts
“The problem with the world is that the intelligent people are full of doubts,...”
– Charles Bukowski
7:34
If you really want to disappear from the world, whether for a while or for good, all you really have to do (aside from commiting suicide) is to delete your facebook account. It has been over a month since I have lost access to my facebook profile and I must admit, it feels damn good. I am no social butterfly and I am no expert at keeping any relationships at tangent so giving away my password to...
“You’ll find out as you set out after your dreams that most people don’t really...”
– Kelly Cutrone
“I don’t love studying, I hate studying.
I like learning, learning is beautiful.”
– Natalie Portman
8:40
I have zero resistance to stress related situations. I have no skills for detecting any potential shortcomings and my coping abilities are the worst. I don’t know how the hell I am still handling my classes, progams, applications, and work. I suppose by sacrificing sleep and 99% of my social life. A little venting out helps but I cannot rant forever. But who cares, I am going to curse the...
